overview of life....or what little bit of it i live right now.

sigh.

once again.

i'm in that mood again.
is it reminiscing? or regretful? or (okay you know what i can't think of any more chim words.)

anyway. sigh.

since i'm not doing much.
i just decided to post smth.

i dunno exactly wad i'm gonna post on...
just wanted to post.

i haven't blogged in ages. (okay maybe not THAT long but quite long)
soz.....

hmm...

okay. update on the "girl" situation...

let's see....how many people actually know about my crush alrdy LOL...

erm...
josh,
vivek,
ji yang,
darryl,
ryan,
ju,
rachel,
katherine,
meng hui,
hao wen,
isaac,
yong han,
wei liang,


wow. 13 ppl.

well THAT's REALLY auspicious.... =,=

and how many people know her name??

3....

like lolaroflmao

erm...

haiz.
i dunno larrhhhh


last thrus went to jurong point with mh and jy.
like lol

just go thr to stone around and just walk arnd.

in the end jy and me went to watch CWACOM.
mh had to go home.

lol was talking abt girls and stuff related to that throughout the whole movie.
at first entered the wrong cinema LOL.

then the show started and it was some random kung fu shit.
we were both like...um........
wtf??

then we thought that we MIGHT be in the wrong cinema.
so exited... (jy tripped over someone's bag on the way out LOL)

then realised...oh yeah.
wrong cinema.

=,=

lol.
so anyway.
the movie was quite good.
although a little childish (but hey, there were sec school students in school uniform there...so i wasn't complaining)

that flint guy is reaaallly weird.

it was just damn funny lah.
as well as screwed up .


sigh.

ehm...so i've started work at my mum's office.

entering sales orders and posting them.
and making reports.

kinda sian.
at first my 'boss' cut and printed specific orders to make it easier for me.

now i'm just given GITA numbers and i have to manually refer to the masterlist to find the orders.

so more sian.

sigh.

many many sighs in my life.

haiz.

...

oh yeah.

major event.
Confirmation.

i'll not discuss the sketchy details (i.e. related to my crush)
cos yea...if i do then it'll be a bit obvious.

or wadever. not like anyone visits here anyway

day before had to rehearse my readings (which i just HAD to do again)
practised a bit more.
felt a bit more confident.

then confi day itself.

OMG....

epic butterflies.
not only did i have to worry abt the reading,
but i was nervous enough abt gifts.
urgh.

cldn't seem to find a right time to give em.

in the end i didn't giv two presents.
the one for M and for A.
well...the present for A is kinda cool.
maybe i'll keep it. =P

i'm not that close to them anyway...prolly won't see them.
(ever again??)

sigh.
so that's it.
the last of cathecism.
the last of CPL3.
but first bak to confi.

was getting more and more nervous sitting in the 'lectors seat'...
as it neared my turn.
marie went up...then i knew it was coming soon...

so then finally...
went up.

i tink my voice was loud and clear.
just like practise.

and i wasn't feeling too nervous up there either.
so it was worth it to practice.

wow this is a long post.

anyway.
sadly.
it's the end of CPL3....

i'm gonna miss it.
(and not just cos i got less chance to see 'her')

it's been fun with the guys.
and also the other guys.
lol.

sigh.

hope thr'll be some sense of community in the future.
hmm...
ddamn..
sooooo wish there was a mass event or smth like that...

grrrrrrr


oh well...wishing don't do anything good does it.
i have to do smth.

(and that brings me back to 'her')

urgh....

even when i sat next to her that day.
i didn't say anth to her except mouthing hello.

so wad.
how e heck am i supposed to talk t her...

although of course i'd have stuff to talk abt if we HAD to talk to each other.

the thing is.
i miss the camp atmosphere.
where it's just talking with yur group members.
not worrying abt yur own frens or other people.
it's just casual chat to learn more abt yur group member.

that's whats so awesome about camps i guess.
it's like. okay.

in a classroom situation.
i have stuff to say.
but i feel somehow it won't be appropriate or smth like that.

but in a camp situation, where we're given a chance to just talk.

that's what i need i guess... a chance to just talk.
and no distractions...

sigh.

well a chance like that's not gonna come if i just wait for it.
gotta do smth abt it eh?

lol.
sigh.

alrite this is REALLY a lot of stuff.
that's all i guess.

Payce out,
BBoy Jay-Z-D