how do i feel? =\

haiz.

right now i REALLY DON'T KNOW how to feel.
someone's technically hitting on 'her'.
and y'know what?

i don't feel anything at all.
not jealous.
not sad.
not pissed.
not regretful.

just nothing.
sigh.
it's like....is the fire dying out after months of INTENSE obsession?
i mean...it seems such a.....i dunno...such a waste.

i've been crazy. as in seriously crazy over 'her' for bloody long (as long as i ever have been anyway)
and now it's simply just faded away....

i'm not sure whether it's cos it's so hard to talk to her?
or she just doesn't care abt conversations?
or cos i'm just tired of it....

it's just so....

URGH!!

and yea.

as i said. right now,
i dun really feel anything.

even though the O's are over.
i can't really feel excited or relieved...

cos i still have lotsa shit to do.
combined camp.
campfire.
confi mass reading.

wtf.
hell.
this sux.
fuck.


yeah......
i am one twisted messed up deprived little kid....

dun worry....
i'm not feeling emo now.

just very....um...
yea.
hard to say it exactly.

i just don't feel normal.
im not emo.

just weird.

feel strange.
i don't know how to feel anymore.

sigh.

Payce out,
BBoy Jay-Z-D=