Sleepover at cous'

okay. it's like four days late.
but i'mma blog abt the sleepover.

hahas.

okay so i met them at erm...wad was that place?
er...oh yeah
Ion @ Orchard.

so i saw ryan holding what i feared was a sword.


my fears were realised. -,-
apparently he'd gotten it from that dumb anime fest (where he apparently met a lot of his frens. (including some girls who like did cosplay or smth like that))
it was, what? 45bucks?

for a piece of wood.
like...yea..

that's how much of an anime freak he is i guess.
i swear.
him and ji yang would get along like perfectly.

well anyway.

talked a lot of random cock in the RSH while his parent's searched for stuf for their chiang mai trip on tues.

then went up to library.
talked a LOT of random cock.

i guess that's why it's so fun to be with them.
all the random cock
it's not the things we do.

it's just the fact that we get to talk random cock.

i love random cock. =))

er yea haha.

so then we ate at the food court.
then went to their house.

i played DW4 with rox...
ryan went to the com.
msn & fb.
lol.

apparently he was worried that his good fren (a girl btw)
would act differently now that she had a bf.

wtf?
when will i ever have to deal with that problem...
hmm...

maybe i hav to hav close girl friends first. -,-

er yea.

so then i logged in to my fb and showed them 'her' profile.

when i logged in that night i saw that she liked my status.

i was like wtf??
cos the status was something sad for me...
T.T

i was totally like... walau..that's so unfair.
(as i was inclined to say regularly for that period of time for some reason.) dnno why

heh. my status was.
oh wait.
i shldn't put it here shld i?

l8r SOME PEOPLE go look thru my fb statuses tryin to find who liked it.

oh well.

but the next day i figured out WHY she liked it.
so yea.

oh and funny.

ryan thought the OTHER girl in 'her' profile pic was the actual 'her'

according to him the other girl's more chio.

like. wadever... lol


erm yea.
also played SSBB which was totally spastic and random.
but mostly we stuck with DW4 lol.

next day they had piano lesson (meaning their mum too. lol)

so got up at like 7? (earlier than those two. AND more awake too)
we'd all slept at like 1+ that morning


so they were both uber tired. esp since it was their 2nd night in a row sleeping late.

lol they actually slept at the piano teacher's house. in between their turns.

i kept ryan awake discussing girls of course.
and then a small pillow fight which inflamed his eye.
O.O.

oops.haha

so then went back
ryan went back to school to beat up the security guard to try and get his books which he left in school.

rox went with me to the dentist.

direct bus apparently.

man. the staff there are like totally changed. only recognised one staff.

and to be frank.
the new staff are pretty ugly.
like.
=X

srsly.

haha okay.

so then after that went bak to their house,
and then went to their ah ma house.
there's a ps3 there.

and they have two cousins.

both small.
i forgot their names though.

anyway.

they have GH5!!
O.O

although it's uber laggy.
so not fun to play.
and the guitar controller is like very erm...
not nice. lol

so yea.

then while we were walking back to their house.
was on ryan's case for "bringing up girls every chance he gets"

then he's like "you can't blame me...90% of my class are girls"

i was totally stumped. like. WTF!?!?

walau...he damn lucky lorh he.

zzzz

oops. starting to sound despo.
haha.

ah who cares.... -,-

so then went back to their house.

showed ryan for the last time which one was really 'her'

other than that didn't have time for much else.

except a bit of DW4.
loools.

haha yea that's it.

it WAS DAMN AWESOME!!!!!

BLOODY FUN LOLLMAOROFLcopter!!

ahhha xD

Payce out,
BBoy Jay-Z-D/BBoy Cyril

fate~

it's a funny thing fate.
i can think of several situations where fate is so life-changing.

1. camps. who do you end up in the same group as?
2. class. who ends up in your class? who ends up sitting near/next to you?
3. plain old random stuff.

yea.
just experienced some weird things recently.
totally fate-filled.

so let's see.

today after work took a bus home.
saw "154" and thought it looked familiar and assumed it went to hougang central.
the thing is, it WAS familiar.
but for the wrong reason.
so i ended up somewhere in macphereson. (got off after realising that the bus dosen't go to hougang, it goes to Eunos. =,=)
thr was an mrt thr. but it was closed for some unknown reason.
i assume cos it isn't ready yet.
so then i look and see wad buses are there.
none that i cld take to hougang central. except 80.

and it just so happens that 80 passes by a certain friend of mine whom i haven't talked to/heard in like a month, who's recovering from surgery.

so i just thought, heck. i'll call him. maybe i can stop by.
so i call him. and he actually PICKS UP this time! like WOW.
so we start talking. and we have a LOT to talk about yea.

how is this fate?

given the choice i would've just ended up going to hougang mall and heading to the arcade.
instead, i chat with a lost old friend. and i'm gonna meet up with him.

y'know if not for that i prolly would have assumed he'd died or smth like that.
so.
cool.

anth strange thing fate did for me.

SALT session.
just went there for fun really.
if not i cld've just gone to meet my cous earlier.
but i just thought, heck i'll go.
and i did.

so then we split into groups to do discussion/sharing.
at first i was in one group,
then i got pulled into another as they started shuffling us around.
then a new girl is also asked to join the group.
naturally she sits next to me (i was nearest and she didn't know anyone anyway)

so then after our group is done with the sharing.
everyone else is talking away.
except of course me.
and her.

so i thought well i'll just start a conv.
i totally expected it to end after like 2 sentences.
but to my surprise she actually talked to me a lot to.
like i was trying to think of more stuff to say but she beats me to it.

so it was pretty fun talking to her.

what if i hadn't gone for the session?
what if i'd sat somewhere else? (cos i sure as heck wouldn't have got up from my seat and walk next to her just to say hi)
what if they hadn't shuffled the groups?

how cool eh?

sometimes i just gotta love fate.

speaking of fate. (and YES i'm gonna talk about crushing yet again)
confi camp.
if i'd been in another group.
my life right now would NOT be the same.
if i didn't have such an awesome facil who could finish sharings so bloody fast and give us time to talk cock amongst the group.
my life would NOT be the same.
if the people in my group had been different.
my life DEFINITELY would NOT be the same.

strange eh? how fate wants to play us.

and then there are times i wanna beat it up.

like once.
we were in the hall (by we, i mean a large group, which includes 'her')
we were supposed to have parents there.
'she' didn't have her parents with her.
i did though. although my mum was leaving halfway.
i figured, since 'shes' just sitting behind me, after my mum left i'd just move behind and sit next to her.

but then fate just wanted to toy with me.

first some random person occupied the seat next to 'her'.

in my head i was groaning. going "OH come on.... FML"
then she got off the seat.

and went to find her child.
i was like. oh. alrite!

then another old (okay maybe not THAT old. but kinda old) lady
who's carrying plastic bags puts her bags there.
i was like. GIVE ME A BREAK DAMMIT...

then the teachers tried to help her find a seat, or find her child.
they were like "you want to sit in front? nearer?"

and i was like. c'mon. c'mon. GO sit there....

then she waved her hand to say no.
i was like. ahhh F***
but in the end she went off to dunno where.
and when my mum left the seat next to 'her' was empty.
like AWWW YEAH.

so i go sit next to her.
barely mouth "hello"

and remain silent throughout.

=,=!!!!!!!!!


sigh. lol.

how sad eh?

but still. fate is bloody awesome.

if i hadn't fallen for the YCS trick,
and joined legion instead.
my life would definitely be a hell of a lot different.

i mean. my best friends are from YCS.

i don't have to list them down.
scared of leaving people out.

but yea.
life would SOO be different.

esp that first YCS March camp 2 years ago.
THAT was when it all just...well.
happened.

haha.
i am REALLY into a reminiscent mood right now.

thinkin about all that.

haha.
and the worst would be if i hadn't gotten into sji.

now THAT would be a MAJOR change.

although maybe if i'd gone victoria,
i wouldn't be having such serious girl trouble. ;)

LOLS.

okayokay.
no use thinking about what COULD be.

i'll settle for whatever. =)

Payce out,
BBoy Jay-Z-D/BBoy Cyril

overview of life....or what little bit of it i live right now.

sigh.

once again.

i'm in that mood again.
is it reminiscing? or regretful? or (okay you know what i can't think of any more chim words.)

anyway. sigh.

since i'm not doing much.
i just decided to post smth.

i dunno exactly wad i'm gonna post on...
just wanted to post.

i haven't blogged in ages. (okay maybe not THAT long but quite long)
soz.....

hmm...

okay. update on the "girl" situation...

let's see....how many people actually know about my crush alrdy LOL...

erm...
josh,
vivek,
ji yang,
darryl,
ryan,
ju,
rachel,
katherine,
meng hui,
hao wen,
isaac,
yong han,
wei liang,


wow. 13 ppl.

well THAT's REALLY auspicious.... =,=

and how many people know her name??

3....

like lolaroflmao

erm...

haiz.
i dunno larrhhhh


last thrus went to jurong point with mh and jy.
like lol

just go thr to stone around and just walk arnd.

in the end jy and me went to watch CWACOM.
mh had to go home.

lol was talking abt girls and stuff related to that throughout the whole movie.
at first entered the wrong cinema LOL.

then the show started and it was some random kung fu shit.
we were both like...um........
wtf??

then we thought that we MIGHT be in the wrong cinema.
so exited... (jy tripped over someone's bag on the way out LOL)

then realised...oh yeah.
wrong cinema.

=,=

lol.
so anyway.
the movie was quite good.
although a little childish (but hey, there were sec school students in school uniform there...so i wasn't complaining)

that flint guy is reaaallly weird.

it was just damn funny lah.
as well as screwed up .


sigh.

ehm...so i've started work at my mum's office.

entering sales orders and posting them.
and making reports.

kinda sian.
at first my 'boss' cut and printed specific orders to make it easier for me.

now i'm just given GITA numbers and i have to manually refer to the masterlist to find the orders.

so more sian.

sigh.

many many sighs in my life.

haiz.

...

oh yeah.

major event.
Confirmation.

i'll not discuss the sketchy details (i.e. related to my crush)
cos yea...if i do then it'll be a bit obvious.

or wadever. not like anyone visits here anyway

day before had to rehearse my readings (which i just HAD to do again)
practised a bit more.
felt a bit more confident.

then confi day itself.

OMG....

epic butterflies.
not only did i have to worry abt the reading,
but i was nervous enough abt gifts.
urgh.

cldn't seem to find a right time to give em.

in the end i didn't giv two presents.
the one for M and for A.
well...the present for A is kinda cool.
maybe i'll keep it. =P

i'm not that close to them anyway...prolly won't see them.
(ever again??)

sigh.
so that's it.
the last of cathecism.
the last of CPL3.
but first bak to confi.

was getting more and more nervous sitting in the 'lectors seat'...
as it neared my turn.
marie went up...then i knew it was coming soon...

so then finally...
went up.

i tink my voice was loud and clear.
just like practise.

and i wasn't feeling too nervous up there either.
so it was worth it to practice.

wow this is a long post.

anyway.
sadly.
it's the end of CPL3....

i'm gonna miss it.
(and not just cos i got less chance to see 'her')

it's been fun with the guys.
and also the other guys.
lol.

sigh.

hope thr'll be some sense of community in the future.
hmm...
ddamn..
sooooo wish there was a mass event or smth like that...

grrrrrrr


oh well...wishing don't do anything good does it.
i have to do smth.

(and that brings me back to 'her')

urgh....

even when i sat next to her that day.
i didn't say anth to her except mouthing hello.

so wad.
how e heck am i supposed to talk t her...

although of course i'd have stuff to talk abt if we HAD to talk to each other.

the thing is.
i miss the camp atmosphere.
where it's just talking with yur group members.
not worrying abt yur own frens or other people.
it's just casual chat to learn more abt yur group member.

that's whats so awesome about camps i guess.
it's like. okay.

in a classroom situation.
i have stuff to say.
but i feel somehow it won't be appropriate or smth like that.

but in a camp situation, where we're given a chance to just talk.

that's what i need i guess... a chance to just talk.
and no distractions...

sigh.

well a chance like that's not gonna come if i just wait for it.
gotta do smth abt it eh?

lol.
sigh.

alrite this is REALLY a lot of stuff.
that's all i guess.

Payce out,
BBoy Jay-Z-D

how do i feel? =\

haiz.

right now i REALLY DON'T KNOW how to feel.
someone's technically hitting on 'her'.
and y'know what?

i don't feel anything at all.
not jealous.
not sad.
not pissed.
not regretful.

just nothing.
sigh.
it's like....is the fire dying out after months of INTENSE obsession?
i mean...it seems such a.....i dunno...such a waste.

i've been crazy. as in seriously crazy over 'her' for bloody long (as long as i ever have been anyway)
and now it's simply just faded away....

i'm not sure whether it's cos it's so hard to talk to her?
or she just doesn't care abt conversations?
or cos i'm just tired of it....

it's just so....

URGH!!

and yea.

as i said. right now,
i dun really feel anything.

even though the O's are over.
i can't really feel excited or relieved...

cos i still have lotsa shit to do.
combined camp.
campfire.
confi mass reading.

wtf.
hell.
this sux.
fuck.


yeah......
i am one twisted messed up deprived little kid....

dun worry....
i'm not feeling emo now.

just very....um...
yea.
hard to say it exactly.

i just don't feel normal.
im not emo.

just weird.

feel strange.
i don't know how to feel anymore.

sigh.

Payce out,
BBoy Jay-Z-D=