sign from God about relationship.... O.o

okay...so like on wednesday
school had that sex talk thingy.

except for those who opted out. which basically amounted to like 9 of us.
O.o...
was so expecting more than that.

anyway.
we were forced to watch some videos on 'modesty' and stuff like that instead.
and one of the videos REALLY hit me.
it was like seriously a total and obvious sign for me...
it's like, this is wad the guy in the video said.

"historically,guys have always been the initiaters of relationships.because it honours women,cos it takes the burden of rejection off of them and places it unto us"

oO
and something like "what a guy is saying basically when he asks a girl out is "i'd rather risk rejection, than not being with you""

like. woaaah.
if that isn't an obvious sign then i don't know what is....

so. yeah.

i'm gonna try.
of course.
i may be scared as hell.
i may piss in my pants.
i may run screaming.
i may pass out.

but. i will try.
i swear.

(just not now. ><)
aiya i just dunno lah. now dosen't seem like such a good idea y'know.

anyway. i sms-ed a girl pretty much for the first time in my life recently. lmao.

all thanks to jin asking me to sms her. o.o

haha i'm like so desperate for help i've told like 3 girls abt it alrdy...... O.O
and 2 years ago i wouldn't have KNOWN 3 girls.

sigh. and now i'm freaking out over a girl.

how times can change eh??



anyway....
got back results today.
i suppose in some senses it's okay.
but i still don't think i did all that well.
i didn't get A1 for two sciences....
D=
sigh. that's like a first since who knows when. i tink. hmm.

but anyway.
Physics - 77
Chem - 73.5
Bio - 68.5 (WTf LAH....... D= (and thaddaeus got 84!?!?!?)
A Math - 85
E Math - 86.
Geog (Physical) - 34. o.o....
Geog (Human) - 41 O.O (WTF.... and the teacher didn't even teach human geog properly)
Geog (Full) - 75. woooah.... damn zhun sia
Elect Lit (Seen Essay) - 15. WTH.... D= .... and i thought i did pretty well. (but apparently the teacher only saw my answer as vaild (i.e. NOT bullshit) from like the second page onwards. WTF)
Elect Lit (Unseen Prose) - 21. HOLY CRAP???
Elct Lit (Total) - 72. woooahh.. totally unexpected
S.S. (Essay) - 21. O.o woah. not bad.
S.S. (SBQ) - 11. WTF. screw SBQs lah.
S.S. (Total) - 64
Combined Humans - 68.... (.....)
English - okay this is freaking pissing.... 74.4. (are you freaking kidding me?? i need bloody hell 0.1 more marks to get A1..... =,=)
Chinese (Express. (Prelim)) - 61 woah. but shit. they expect at least 70.... -,-
Chinese (Higher) - 56. WOAH. i beat hao wen shiol.... O.O


Payce out,
BBoy Jay-Z-D